Hi everyone!

I'm glad people enjoyed my fics and I'm sorry I removed them.

The removal was for personal reasons and no, no one told me to, it was my own decision. Because of that, however, I would very much appreciate it if people could not go publicly "fishing" for copies or sharing the copies that are out there.

Obviously I can't enforce this (and the Wayback Machine... urgh, why do you exist? D:), but since people have asked for my thoughts on the subject, there they are.

So thank you again to all the wonderful people who enjoyed my stuff, and apologies for any disappointment the removal has caused.

♥ D.

Oh hi!!
I'm so glad to hear you're well and still active, Dee :D actually it's a relief, because in the years I've been in fandom I've had authors disappear for the most serious of reasons, often health-related, and since I tend to get attached to those whose stories I love even if I don't know them personally, well... I was worried. Hope you don't mind and it doesn't sound stalkerish ugh, I swear it isn't. I'm just emotional.
So, I'm happy to hear that's not your case! I'm sad to learn that you deleted everything and want it to stay that way, though - it's in your right, of course, but your stories were beautiful. Special. They gave me a lot, and still do. The same can be said for your non-AO3 pages: I loved your meta and I'm grateful I got to read it all. Fandom truly has lost much :(
If I may ask, are you leaving fandom forever? (Please don't!) Why did you do it, and do you think you will ever find your way back to fanfiction? Please don't think I want to be prying, and sorry if I come off so, it's just that I've always wondered what could push someone away from their hard work so abruptly, since I couldn't see myself deleting everything I ever shared with other fans.

I hope this message finds you and that you will be so patient as to reply to it :)
*logs off, still emotional*

Mel
PS. I was wondering, will you be using your new lj? If yes, may I friend you?

Aw, thank you. /hugs

I've been getting quite a few concerned messages; at Tumblr, at the AO3, via email. I didn't realise going AWOL would be so noticed! Lesson learned, lol. 6^^

(Also, FWIW: This is actually a very, very old journal rather than a new one. So I won't be using it, no. Mostly it's just to "prove" this is really me, though... I guess that doesn't help much if people don't remember this was my journal to begin with? Duur, lol. /facepalm)

I just wanted to chime in, because I did not see this post until I received your message personally (unfortunately I don't get notifications unless someone replies to a post I have made directly). I will of course stop offering to distribute the stories and would like to extend my apologies, as no offense was meant. I tried to search for a post to this effect before distribution, but, alas, made a mistake.

Apology accepted, and yes I figured that's what had happened. :)

(FWIW, I didn't explicitly make a "I no longer want this stuff shared" post prior to seeing this thread, because I guess I kinda, er, assumed that was implied when I deleted my entire web presence? Lesson learned, I guess. Lol. 6^^)

Hi there,

I just got back from a lovely vacation only to find out that my favorite story of Loki is gone.
I know you just said to not give any stories away, but I have been recommending these stories for so long to many of my friends, that is there any way in your heart to allow me a copy of your stories?

I have never reposted stories as my own, I only want to enjoy the great writing that you have done for this fandom. I have been in many fandoms since 2009 (when I started), and even to this day I have feelings for those long forgotten stories. I would like your works especially Small Things (others if you are willing) to become one of those stories.

Sincerely crazyinouterspace@gmail.com

You'll probably not respond to this, but I'll at least know I tried... I just need to know if Hawke, Fenris, and Anders got a 'happy for now' ending in Rabbit Heart. Not a 'happily ever after' because that would be impossible, given the circumstances lol! That's it, I won't ask to share jack, I just need that small amount of closure before Inquisition comes out later this year.

Of course they get a HFN! (I'm a sucker for that sort of thing.)

It's been a while, so I forget the exact details, but I imagined there being some Big and Terrible Showdown at the Pit, involving the other group the slavers were selling to (the one Hawke apparently forgot about in his chasing after the Chained Sun). I imagine some people would've died, but I hadn't worked out who.

In the end, however, Hawke takes his merry band and they head off on their way. So it was going to be... bittersweet, I guess. u_u

And now you know!

I realize that it's been forever since this comment was posted, and that you are probably getting annoyed with all the people asking for copies of your fics, but if you can find it in your heart to send me a copy of ALIMoM, I will be grateful forever and write odes to your majesty and wisdom. (No, seriously, I will.)

I share sentiments with several others here, if it's not too much trouble I'd be thrilled to have a copy of the Agent Loki series, strictly for my personal library!

Pretty Please!

mythlawrk@gmail.com

I think I'd die for a copy of the Mayhem series myself. No harm in begging, right?

sniktsnakt@hotmail.com

Okay, so I had not read Alis Dee's comment before I left you the first message, but please, I know that is like super disrespectful and awful of me,to Alis, but I'm going crazy, I had been already searching for the fic since around a month ago, It haunted me because I just remembered snippets of it and I knew/know that is one of the best fics I've read, I absolutely loved it and I know that if I never read it again it will just haunt me forever, and really is been a month of relentlessness searching. I even went trough all my AO3 history just to see if I had it there. Please, I'm really, really going crazy, like about to cry crazy. I swear I will not pass it to anyone else, I just need to read it again. Please. so this is my mail erdbeereis061001@gmail.com, please take mercy on me!

Why didn't you choose the Orphan Works option at A03?