So, I've been looking for this fiction for ages, and I completely lost it. It's about Tony, and I'm not absolutely sure if there is a pairing in it- I think it was mostly a tony-centric avengers as family fic. It was about Tony, through his entire life, writing in a notebook/journals all the reasons that he should kill himself. All the mistakes he made, all the things he was told were wrong by his father. He told himself that when it was full, he would commit suicide. It was found by his team, I think just a few pages from being filled. They take it and ask him where the good one is, the one to balance it out. There isn't one- so they each write one. Reasons why they are glad he's there for them. It was really sweet and I was just hoping to read it again. I hope someone here recognizes it and is able to point me in the right direction. I appreciate any help at all!