The story is a series I read on ao3 and now I can’t find it. It has dark, abusive!Steve who beats Tony. It’s in Tony’s POV for the series and I remember a part where Tony mentions Steve wasn’t abusive before they got married, but the first instance happened about a week after they returned from their honeymoon. Steve and Tony were in the kitchen, cooking spaghetti, and something happened and they ended up spilling the spaghetti all over the floor, and they end up on the floor, Tony just laughs, and he expects Steve to do the same, but Steve slaps him across the cheek. Both are startled, and Tony runs away. Of course, Steve apologizes, saying he’ll never do that again, but of course that is not the case. From what I can remember from the story and the rest of the series, Tony tells how Steve has dragged him across the floor and has even broken some of his ribs. There’s a part where Tony says Steve doesn’t realize he’s killing his own husband. And people have asked Tony about his bruises and Tony blames it on being Iron Man, of course. And there’s parts where Tony suspects other people like Bruce and Natasha know he’s being beaten, but won’t come forward to help him.
Does anyone know how to find this fic? It was beautifully written and you just wanna cry for Tony. I will sell my soul to the person who can find this story/series.